Tuesday, 22 September 2009

Blogging blogs that are hopefully read

The inherent problem about writing a blog is that you don't know who's reading it. You look at the number on the stat counter - when it works. Mine, for the second time, decided to give it up and now I've had to start again at the beginning. Frustrating but, ultimately, egotistical. No?

You sit down, you stare at the screen, you begin to write something and then, hopefully, you find a rythm, and something that makes sense invariably turns up. It's like the (famous) Henry Mancini concept: you sit at the piano, you know you have a piece of music to write, you know that you have x time to write it in, so you do and it gets done. Don't ask me how.

So I'm writing my blog and people are reading it and sometimes you get a comment (I wish that there were more!) that floors you. Who could it possibly be from? Who knows so much? Who is it that actually offers more information than you actually have yourself? Your imagination flows. So why be anonymous? And angry?

Little has happened this week. I think that the meds are kicking in. I believe that Zach is now taking a medication that counterracts the desire for heroin. I also believe that he's far less manic but, in a conversation with Sam, Zach still expresses his desire to use cannabis. So, then, what is the point of all this? Just a re-hash (sorry, my pun) of all the previous histories. Isn't it about time that he actually took stock of his life and there was some self-examination? How about going completely clean? You know, no drugs, apart from those medically prescribed? Wouldn't that make sense?

What makes sense is that Zach continues at the clinic in Delhi and enjoy the weather once it clears up and somehow make use of the facilities of detox and rehab and introspection and if and while that happens, I'll write my blog into the ether but hope that I do, indeed as a consequence, get more comments - whatever they are and whoever they are from.

And, by the way, Happy New Year!


Janice said...

There are those of us who read your blog faithfully, even though we may not leave comments. We feel for you, we pray for you and wish you and Sam a peaceful New Year. We also pray for Zach and hope this New Year will also bring him a measure of peace and good health.

Ros Morris said...

Thanks Janice! ;))

Wendy L said...

Maybe you think you are writing into a void but you are not. Readers continue to follow your family's story, some may share your pain through personal circumstances, some may have empathy, some may get their own support and knowledge through knowing that they are not alone.
I sincerely hope and pray that this New Year brings change for the better to you and yours. It is heartwarming to hear that Zach is making improvements, just remeber how far he has come in the last 2 months or so.

Mike P. said...

I read your blog religiously!Just wanted you to know. x

Screen3 said...

your blog is read Ros.

Anonymous said...

I have been reading your blog since losing my brother recently to depression/mental illness. Lots of what you wrote in your book expresses alot of how others feel in your situation, certainly myself. You are not alone and think of you often.